Have you ever felt like you needed a fresh start, but been afraid of exactly what that might mean or look like? Have you been concerned about what might need to be left behind along the way? Have you just been too afraid to let go of what was familiar, even if it was totally not what you wanted in your life because the familiar is at least comfortable?
I feel your pain. And I’m going to suggest, finding a way to get a fresh start doesn’t have to mean flushing all of the other good things in your life. It just means being clear in your expectations and being willing to do the work.
This week I have been at a writer’s retreat. I’ve been working on several writing projects, including this blog, for several years and have not really been making much progress. I knew I needed a fresh start. What I didn’t want was to feel like a failure for not having done more.
I was terribly afraid that this retreat would feel that way. I was going to be there along with people who had been at previous camps and had already published. I still had published nothing. I knew that part of the discussion would be around what we were writing and how to make it better. Frankly, outside of school work the only original thing I had been working on was my blog, and even that I had only been working on haphazardly.
If there was a situation perfectly designed to make me feel like a failure, this was it.
But I paid the money, I started putting one of my ideas into an outline, and I went!
Boy am I glad I did.
Now, it is possible that other conferences and retreats might have been designed differently, but the organizers and participants in this one were all very helpful, encouraging and sympathetic to the real life concerns that have plagued me.
They offered real, immediately useful strategies for overcoming some of the problems that I encounter.
They offered encouragement and useful critique around my writing and were genuinely concerned with my improvement.
They also offered real friendship and support.
A complete tanking of my life choices up to this moment in time? Nope. A fresh start? ABSOLUTELY.
If you are feeling like there are some projects or processes that you have started that just don’t seem to be working out well, don’t throw them out, lock-stock-and-barrel. Instead, if they are truly important to you, find someone (or several someones) who you believe will tell you the truth in a helpful and encouraging way. Find a way to get a fresh start on something, and see if it doesn’t help other things in your life feel refreshed as well.